Another bend in the road…..

I have been writing out things in my head all weekend, I guess writing has become therapeutic for me. Life has taken yet another twist and turn, though this weekend was spend with a lot of joy and laughter I have had a few gut wrenching things happen also that have left me grappling once again for direction.

As you know I am a runner and am planning on running a marathon October 3rd for World Vision. I mentioned on Friday that last week I started running again after taking some time off to work with a personal trainer. I was really encouraged that even though I had not run for a while I was still able to run 3-4 miles a time without dying. Mid-week my right shin and knee started to hurt, but I honestly did not think much about it. I have no problem running through pain and in a strange way enjoy the sense of accomplishment after I have done something that was not fun at the time. So I kept running. I talked to my trainers and a few others who know about sports related injuries we all came to the conclusion that I just had really bad shin splints. I was bummed, but they are not a big deal to heal so was not to worried,

Friday night Phil took me out an a GREAT date, and after dinner we went to a movie. Almost the whole movie I was in excruciating pain and kept on moving trying to find a position where my leg did not hurt as bad. That night, sleeping even hurt. Saturday morning we went to the gym for our class again and during class I was doing everything but was almost feeling sick it hurt so much. After class I talked to Megan, our trainer, and she thought that I needed to get to a doctor as soon as possible.

When we got home I called and was able to get an appointment within the hour (seriously, this never happens!) After meeting with the doctor, we did a bunch of x-rays to see what was going on. From this, she was able to see signs leading her to believe that my right tibia is fractured. Though this cannot be confirmed 100% since x-rays do not show as much detail as she would need to know for sure, she said she was 95% sure this is it.

My next step is meeting with an Orthopedic Specialist tomorrow where she will be able to confirm the fracture. For right now, the first doctor believes that I will not be able to run for 6-12 months and for the next week I can have no impact on the leg. I am praying that I will learn something different tomorrow, but for now it looks like I will not be able to run the marathon.

Even though this is just an injury, my head and heart are having a really hard time accepting this. I feel such a passion and calling to do this for kids who do not have their own voice. It is not just about running, but running for a purpose. Honestly my heart is broken. I feel such a calling to do this, and do believe that God has told me to do this. I am confused why He would tell me to do this and then allow an injury to stop me. I do trust that God has a plan, I am just waiting to see what the next step is.