And the results…. More waiting!

You know how when there is an area in your life you need to work on it always comes up? Its like praying for humbleness, as soon as you do over and over again you're humbled! Well in my life this is patience and giving God control. If you know me well, you understand where I am coming from. I am a very planned organized person. I like to know what I am doing, when I am doing it, what will happen next… blah blah blah… Phil jokes all the time about the lists I make. When we moved I made a list of lists I needed to make. I know to normal people this seems, well, odd, but let’s face it, I’m not normal. Ok, and one more confession while I am at it, yes, my planner is color coded for each thing. Ok, I feel better admitting that!

So as you can see I tend to be a control freak and yes, this is something God is working on with me! I do want God to have the control in my life, and even though I still struggle with this, I have learned SO much over the last few years how life is really totally out of my control. Even though I am getting better at trusting God with my future I still have a long ways to go and I am continually reminded that I need to give everything over to the one who has the control!

Lately with this injury I have struggled with letting things go. Honestly I do not understand why God would tell me to run for kids in Africa only to allow me to get hurt. But I am in a place where I can say, “ok God, you allowed this, let me trust you with what you are doing.” I do not know what is going to happen, but I do trust that even if I am unable to run, God has something planned, even if that is just taking time off and running again next year…

I am still waiting to find out exactly what is going on, even though I BEGGED the lab tech (literally, I begged laying on the MRI table to tell me, yes he thought I was nuts!) to tell me what was going on, the only thing he would tell me is that he saw something and that I would have to wait to talk to my doctor on Tuesday about the results. So I wait… and I am honestly working really hard at trusting God in this time!

Though I still do not have any concrete answers I did find something out about my doctor that I thought was really cool. After my MRI the lab tech said something about my doctor being the best Orthopedic Specialist in the state, I thought he was just being nice and said something like, “yeah, why?” He said that she was nominated and selected to be the DOCTOR FOR THE US OLYMPIC SWIM TEAM!!! How cool is that?! I was really excited to learn this, and know that I am in really good hands also! (I MEAN SHE WORKS WITH MICHAEL PHELPS…)

So despite not understanding why this happened, I am learning to trust God through yet another thing… maybe I will get it right this time!