An in between day

Its eleven thirty on Saturday night and I am typing on my laptop in bed. The blue glow of the computer is lighting up the room and there is the noise of my typing along with my other favorite noises, the dog sleeping next to our bed running in his sleep, and Phil sleeping next to me, I can hear his steady breathing as he sleeps. In the silence there is a peace and love that I feel. I am grateful for this in between day.

Today we went to a family friends beautiful wedding. When the pastor was talking he said something to the bride and groom about this being a huge day for them, which it was, but that it is the other days, the in between the big days that make up a marriage. While there are days that seem more important it is in the everyday little things that matter. Isn’t this true? Everyday is not your wedding day, everyday is not filled with glamour and pictures, most days are just filled with life and where that leads us. Wedding days are very special, but the more special thing is the commitment you are making.

This weekend we both got off work early on Friday and decided this was the time to finish the bathroom remodel, as we walked through Home Depot I found love. As we worked together to tile the floor we laughed, we smiled, we loved. When we crashed into bed after that last tile was laid, I found security and rest. After the wedding both Phil and I were feeling a little bit under the weather so we came home, put on our comfy sweats and snuggled up on the couch and watched a movie. Tonight as I lay snuggled in my bed I am thankful, I am thankful for all that God has blessed me with, I am thankful for a home to live in, I am thankful for a husbands cold feet I can warm up, I am thankful for the tools on our bed room floor that signify great progress, I am thankful for today. These are the in between days.

I love you.

You are my best friend.

Today I give myself to you in marriage.

I promise to encourage and inspire you,

to laugh with you, and to comfort you in

times of sorrow and struggle.

I promise to love you in good times and in

bad, when life seems easy and when it

seems hard, when our love is simple,

and when it is an effort.

I promise to cherish you, and to always

hold you in highest regard.

These things I give to you today,

and all the days of our life

Beautiful

I was so unique

Now I feel skin deep

I count on the make-up to cover it all

Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention

I thought I could be strong

But it's killing me

 

Does someone hear my cry?

I'm dying for new life

I want to be beautiful

Make you stand in awe

Look inside my heart,

and be amazed

I want to hear you say

Who I am is quite enough

Just want to be worthy of love

And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me

Fighting to make the mirror happy

Trying to find whatever is missing

Won't you help me back to glory

You make me beautiful

You make me stand in awe

You step inside my heart, and I am amazed

I love to hear You say

Who I am is quite enough

You make me worthy of love and beautiful - Bethany Dillon

“For once you were full of darkness, but now you have light from the Lord. So live as people of light! For this light within you produces only what is good and right and true” – Ephesians 5:8-9 NLT

Desperate times… desperate measures!

Today is Monday.

You would think that this means I would be completely refreshed and ready to start a long work week, yet the opposite is true today! All morning I have been dreaming of a wonderful blended coffee drink, or curling up in the sun shine and taking a nap. Instead I have settled but sometimes you just gotta to what you gotta do. So after scrounging for change in the bottom of my purse I found enough for a life line… sorry Mom, I know you raised me better! :)

Running Again!

After months of healing I am finally running again! I am so excited to be able to move again and start training for the marathon once again. It will be a long road, but my doctor and physical therapist both believe that I will still be able to run, so here I go!

What’s that you say? No long explanation about why I have not blogged for two weeks? Yup, that’s right, life is just busy! I miss blogging but reality says that I just don’t have the time during the summer that I need, so my priorities are going to shift for the summer, but I’ll be back in the fall. (Hey just think of me like a good TV show… stay tuned for next season and a few posts through the summer!)